Doctor Who and Crying

I've decided that I am more emotionally invested in TV shows than I am in my actual life.

For the past few days I've been absolutely depressed about the last episode of Doctor Who. I'm still on the fifth season chronologically, but thanks to tumblr I know what happens.

WARNING: SPOILERS!! IF YOU ARE A WHOVIAN AND HAVE NOT WATCHED THE ANGELS TAKE MANHATTAN READ NO FURTHER!!

Amy and Rory died. I mean, we knew this was coming; Moffat warned us the ending was going to be like Reichenbach. But I didn't think he meant it literally!! I was so sad when I found out I almost cried right then and there. Amy and Rory weren't my favorite companions at first, but I grew to love them. And even though they died together, I felt their ending was the most tragic of all the companions. Rose got her own Doctor; Martha married Mickey; Donna forgot but she's alive and she has Wilf. In the end, they all leave the Doctor. And it makes me so freaking sad.

It's honestly kind of embarrassing how emotional I get over TV shows, movies and books. All my friends tease me about it, but it secretly kind of bothers me. I've decided that I just have this incredible empathy link with everything, and I'm such a sensual person that I like to experience everything I observe, even if it is vicariously. So that's why I cry when a lover dies; when families are reunited; when a happy ending is finally reached. I imagine I am that character, experiencing everything they do. I still haven't decided if this is a good thing.

Conversely, I almost never cry about my own life and my own problems. Of course, I've been lucky for most of my life thus far to not experience some great tragedy, like the death of a loved one or an identity crisis. But I have plenty of panic attacks and mental breakdowns that cause my other friends to break down. In these situations I am able to hold myself steady and I hide my emotions. It confuses me; I am so open with feelings related to fictional characters yet I am afraid to show my own. Aren't these emotions related? Shouldn't they be? Maybe this will be something I explore in the psych classes I take later next semester.

Thanks for reading. Whovian for life.