Tired

Sorry it's been so long since I've posted, this last week has been crazy. So many papers to write, finally getting over my cold, actually having a social life for once.......it's exhausting. Honestly, I am really excited to go home next weekend.

So this guy started texting me the other day, right after my friend told me I'd have a boyfriend soon. It was pretty out of the blue, so I thought it was weird at first. Then he kind of asked me on a date thing....? We went shopping. Chris asked him a few days later if he liked me, and he said he did, but that he wasn't looking for a relationship right now. I'm not really sure if I like this guy, so being friends for now is fine by me. I am flattered by the attention though :).  Who wouldn't want that?

Just one more week and I'll be home. I can't wait. I need a stress release, my own bed, and a shower in which I don't have to wear shower shoes. God I can't wait.

I hope you enjoyed my fanfic from the other day. Another installment coming soon.

Peace.

Whoa Man.

Well that was a strange turn of events.

So remember that guy in my last post that likes my friend's roommate? Yeah...right after I posted that I told him she didn't like him that way. I wasn't going to tell him, but he really wanted to know. He claims he's fine with it, that's he's not even sure if he really likes her, but I'm sure he's still kind of disappointed...I mean, I would be.

Also, one of my best friends thinks I'm going to have a boyfriend by Thanksgiving....? She told me she just had a feeling. Don't know what to think of that, but I'll take it I guess. 

Nothing new to report today. I have a cold though, which sucks. Right in time for homecoming weekend too. Oh well, hopefully it will be a bit better by the weekend.

I have no classes tomorrow, so I'm pretty pumped to sleep in and chill. Hopefully it will help me feel better.

Since I have nothing else to say and I've been promising you fanfiction, here's the link ti my first installment of my nameless BBC Sherlock fanfic:

 http://whateverpeoplesayiamiswhatimnot.tumblr.com/post/31874646410/here-i-go

Enjoy! 

Weddings and Love

So I just got back from my cousin's wedding and I feel like I missed so much. I was gone for three days and my friends had so much fun without me......I know it happens, but I still feel sad that I missed out.

Also, one of the guys I thought I kind of liked likes my friend's roommate. Which is fine. I can see why he likes her; she's incredibly pretty, she's witty, she's funny, she doesn't take shit from people. The only problem is, I know she doesn't like him back. She told us that he reminds her too much of her cousin and she'd never date him. But if she knew how he felt, would she change her mind? I don't know. I feel bad that he's being led on, but she's not doing it on purpose. And I don't think it's my place to tell either of them how the other feels. This is something they need to talk about.

But this got me thinking about me and my non-exisitant love life. I've been single for 18 years so you'd think it wouldn't bother me anymore. But it does. A lot.

At the beginning of school this year I had three guys going after me. One already had a girlfriend, the other has dropped me like a hot rock, and the other.....he's the guy above. SO what does this say about me? That guys like me just because of my looks? That they think I'm hot but once they get to know me they lose interest? I'm not that type of girl. I don't dress provocatively or act like I'm just out to get some. I'm looking for a long-term, lasting relationship with a guy that I like. I just want someone to love me like Sarah and Ross love each other. Like Danny and Patty love each other. I know I'm young, I know people are telling me not to rush things, I know there's someone out there for me, but I'm tired of waiting. And where are the duds? I know I'll probably have to date a few of those before I find "Mr. Right", but where the hell are they? I'm sick of this. I'm sick of watching other girls get what I want so badly

Sorry if I sound ungrateful or whiny. Maybe I just watch too many sappy movies. But I have and always will be a hopeless romantic, though I'm starting to believe that I'll never find the love I'm looking for. It's not that I have high expectations; a guy has truly never liked me before in that way. Never. I've had plenty of crushes myself, but never has the guy reciprocated the feeling. It's just a bit discouraging, ya know?

Anyway, got to go do someone homework. Thanks for listening to this depressing rant, nameless audience. Hopefully some fanfiction up soon.

Random

Back to school after the long weekend. It was weird being home again, like I was returning from a week-long camp or something. When I'm here I don't feel homesick, even though I was sure I would, but when I get back home I feel like my weeks at school never happened. It's the strangest feeling I've ever had and I'm not quite sure what to make of it. I guess it's good, especially when I head to London in the near future.

I was getting really annoyed with my family. It's not like they were doing anything especially aggravating, but every little thing they did or said seemed to get on my nerves. Maybe I just wasn't used to being around them all the time. I don't know. I felt bad. 

I'm writing a speech for one of my Comm classes in which we have to pick an aphorism and say whether we agree or disagree with it. Naturally, I'm using "Keep calm and carry on" because it's awesome and British. I think it's a good motto to have for college as well.

I'm going to try to post one of my fanfictions in the near future. I'm also writing a narrative in one of my classes about how I began writing, so I'll post that here too as soon as I'm done.